Title: Mozoquista declining
Chapter: 9 / 13
Rating: Over 18 years
Language: English
Banda: Dir en Grey
I do not know, probably never will .. I do not make money with this, believe me, and no, not my property ...
Foreword
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter IX
had already been three weeks since the ugly incident. The wounds on his body had mostly healed and except for some bruises, all traces of violence had gone at least his body. The trials were resumed as soon as the bass player was recovered and intentions return to the normal course of his life which had happened incredibly quickly. During Toshiya practices indulged with greater passion than ever to the music as if his life depended on it and somehow it was. All their nightmare had begun his attempt to escape the bassist of Dir en Grey but their games had turned against him leaving Toshimasa Hara tied to a bed beaten to a pulp, scrambled between blood and semen, while in the background, immaculate, Toshiya masterfully played bass. So remained absorbed in his work during the time he spent only doubt return to his own house, had not returned to visit friends and had disconnected the phone so that nobody could locate. That was his way of escape Toshimasa: taking refuge in her music ... and Shinya. Because the drummer had been in charge throughout the recovery visits while detained in his apartment unable to leave his face and body bruised. The blond came early in the morning to prepare breakfast and lasted all day there, outside cooking, watching movies or making music, until night fell when, for despite both the drummer returned home leaving Toshiya again alone with his sadness and the pain it suppressed during the day. At least no one really knew what had happened, the bear was a good actor and that is many years representing himself on stage was enough experience. Sometimes during rehearsals you desire to mourn drowned when a memory suddenly approached him without mercy but he was firm and his friends did not notice anything unusual, even Shinya.
Moreover, the habit of taking refuge in the company of drummer benign had not completely lost even after the resumption trials and one other day bassist invited him to his house to see a movie and always fair accepted more than likely. Although the films were not strong at least it could spend more time with the peliazul. The film of that day was "Dolls" by Takeshi Kitano, a beautiful 114-minute drama which only 1 / 3 of these were spoken. The result? Shinya was fast asleep on the couch while Toshiya smoked a cigarette on the balcony.
His eyes stared at the emptiness of the night without stars or moon while inhaling the carcinogenic smoke and quiet sigh. His mind was far away in memories the past that seemed more vivid than this surreal. Turned his head looking for something real to what tie before his own mind began to play him last bad and that he could see his executioner walking slowly, approaching with his feline movements, stroking, kissing, possessing. His whole body began to tremble. His eyes rested on the most real thing he found: a thin figure who was sleeping on a couch watching television. Toshiya smiled. In other circumstances it would be taking advantage of the unawareness of their beloved drummer but he was no longer worthy of one so pure as Shinya was now a flawed body, abused and far from beautiful. A damn lustful body. " Toshiya that you complain if I know that everything was your fault. All you did you took this situation ... stops to make your victim if you enjoyed it as the fox you are ... everyone knows you're a bitch ... he knows "His mind touched schizophrenia, divided and incoherent , and their need to keep everything for yourself and act naturally in front of others does not help much. I want to be just to vent. In addition Shinya was sleeping in the place where he used to sleep now. Since the incident Toshiya limited the use of the bedroom to the most elementary and avoided at all costs too much time there so that, among other desperate measures, had moved his "bed" to the couch where at that time Shinya's body lay asleep.
finish smoking his third cigarette of the night and decided to come back to the house because the cold in the morning he was literally freezing. Once inside, the blond pulled up and watched him carefully from her beautiful hair down and watered on the pillow where his head was resting gently, until the sublime feet (nah, are HORRIBLE but love makes us blind eh?) bare hanging off the couch. With careful not to wake the peliazul easily accommodate the thin body of the drummer so that will be comfortably reclined with his head on the pillow, and the rest of his body lying on the couch and covered by a thick blanket. Retained with all his strength to kiss a boost when I saw there helpless, with those lips a little apart invitingly open to them. The drummer seemed to him so beautiful, so delicate, so perfect that gradually came closer, feeling the soft scent of her perfume, her breath on his skin, he could almost taste her sweet lips ... He left immediately disgusted by their own thoughts. She could not, he should not. Decided it was time to sleep or at least away from the charming reclusive creature before doing anything that hurt him.
I turn off the TV and lights were still on and then staggers down the hall to the closed door of your room where you left off for a few seconds to gather the courage and then using all his strength opened the door that led into the damn place.
Everything was as it had left, the bed organized and impassive in the middle of the room, curtains closed, night table with the phone already not sound. Slowly walked into the room, letting your eyes adjust to darkness and the shaking of his body that was seized. " damned if my own room! imbecil stop shaking. " Flopped on the bed. Although he was exhausted and knew I would not be able to sleep or at least would not be easy, it would be like every night, a hell full of minutes countless memories that burned and was silenced only one way: a safe dose of diazepam. Despair began to emerge from the depths of his being, a cold sweat covered his entire body and to be there lying in that bed was putting even worse.
"Toshiya not look at me with those eyes ... you've been tied up before Do not you remember?
shinobaseta Are wo tsukitate yatsu fukaku kubisuji not Tsuyoku
you like eh? "
is jump up and with his hands over his mouth held close to a scream escape. Again I was shaking. He opened the bedroom window so that air entered and remained standing there for an indeterminate time thinking to do to calm down because a panic attack wake drummer and that was the last thing I wanted. His first impulse was to take two tablets of diazepam the bottle he kept in his bedside table, surely that would help him sleep. Drink a glass of water bath and a pill jar. " one, just one ... but I might not wake up tomorrow time" with trembling hands put the tablet back in his throat and then took a long drink of fresh water. The next thing was to get a place to sleep, no human power that forced him to sleep another night on that bed, but did not want to wake Shinya who seemed to enjoy quiet sleep. Resigned to take the blankets that covered the bed and accommodate as best he could on the floor near the window where he entered a fresh air that it was very good for your mind gradually blurring until callus was asleep.
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A desperate cries woke him from sleep. He got a little out quickly, even in the darkness of a department that was not recognized him. He sat on the couch for a little less than a minute while his eyes adjusted to the night and cleared his head back to reality and leaving behind the quiet world of dreams. When felt able to move nimbly slid the chair and walked towards where I heard the screams ceased only moments to make stronger. I do not hesitate to open the locked door and appeared before his eyes again (deja vu ) the image of helpless Toshiya but this time it was tied, and quiet, but on the ground covered by blankets from without certainly out of bed. Shinya slowly approached and found even surprised that the bear was sleeping. " What are you doing on the floor? "knelt at his side while gently trying to wake him by calling him by name and gently shaking bass but did not respond. I take between arms and gently wiped the tears from her face while calling louder and louder. Peliazul finally began to open their eyes still crying desperately. No sooner had awakened violently broke up the tender embrace of Shinya away toward the door while screaming at him to go away, let him alone, he did not want to see more. The blond was stunned. Petrified in the same position and staring at Toshiya that scurried away screaming and crying uncontrollably. The screams just as suddenly stopped and a thick silence in the room was installed. The bass player had fallen on her knees covering her face with both hands while shaking slightly. A very confused Shinya rose from where he had been a spectator of such an unpleasant sight and carefully approached the desolate figure of his friend.
- Toshiya ... - her voice trembled with emotion dam could not hold. He approached a little but stopped trying to seek the consent of another to get closer but all I got was silence.
- are you okay? - Stupid question could not be required. " course not, is it seems to be okay? NO "
- Shin Sorry, I did not yell," the bassist in his hands even sobbing. His own dreams he had played a trick and he was finding it hard to calm down.
- Okay, do not worry. I think you had a bad dream, the blond was finally far enough to embrace the bass but I doubt for a moment. I did not know what had made this panic attack and wanted to prevent happening again. Toshiya undoubtedly had not yet recovered from the shock.
-I ... - bassist abruptly stopped when he felt the warm embrace of his long-cherished love and could not help but getting lost in these arms breaking guards to mourn again.
- Shhhh ... and quiet ... it was just a dream, the blond cradled in her arms kept Toshiya who mourn, and clung to power by driving nails into the flesh .
Shinya "No, it was a dream ... - the peliazul was speaking through his sobs ... I'd most like to go a dream ...
- What? - The blond wonder distressed while carefully separating the bass player of its desperate to hug him in the eye. His face was lost in anguish, his eyes closed unsuccessfully containing tears, her lips trembling like the rest of his body.
- Forget "His voice broke again and more tears spilled onto her cheeks as she hid her face again in the embrace of fair . The drummer took his chin forcing him lift your face and look.
- Do not go to a place where I can not reach, Shinya I spend a sweet smile that was lost when bassist have their eyes tightly closed.
- I did not want ... I swear ... I did not want to ... "- the phrase out of these delicate lips as if each syllable will cause unimaginable pain-yo ... I told him to stop ... I ....
-Totchie calm down, his body convulsing prisoner of a strong earthquake that only worsened when I hear those words from the lips of the blond.
-Never again tell me and spat as he walked away violently from his confused friend. Breathe deeply subsided little by little and then gave her a blank look at who watched in amazement " This is how he calls me ...
- I do not know what you mean, "but I can imagine " He rose from the ground where sat in front of the imposing figure he looked down "I better go back to sleep. I prepare something for you calm down.
"Leave it, do not worry.
"You know I care and I can not quit. If you do not want to prepare you tell me something I can do for you, "Shinya approached bassist smiling again though in truth his mind was a mess of half-formed ideas and all catastrophic but should remain calm as ever.
- Do not leave me alone, "was all that came out of the mouth of the bass as he lowered his face caught in a sudden embarrassment.
Shinya could not help but hug him lie down leaving his head on his shoulder as he broke again to mourn and for an indefinite period. His soul was split into pieces to see him so devastated and destroyed, and could not help but wonder what had happened to bear " if that's what he likes why is this so? Should be happy ... should be well . " Time passed unchanged leaving two souls plunged into a silence of understanding where words were more than enough. When she had calmed down Toshiya drummer convinced him lie down again promised that he would not go anywhere and so both of them lay on the floor next to each other and covered them with blankets. There were no hugs or any attempt to rose among them, just stood there in silence until the peliazul stay asleep through the diazepam he had taken hours earlier.
The blond looked at him sleeping away any thoughts I wanted to stop peace of mind, felt his own eyelids heavier and slowly he relaxed his body. When the drummer finally thought he could also rest a while I hear the cry that escaped from the body lying at his side while his lips moved, tried to articulate a few words indecipherable. Hug him affectionately drawing him toward his own body while stroking her silky hair and whisper sweet nothings in his ear about being careful not to wake him and thanking the power to be so close so many times he had dreamed. Despite how painful the situation he found was a comforting feeling to be able to give vent to their feelings. Yes, it hurt to see how Toshiya suffering and not knowing what caused him such suffering was eating him. But, amid the dark night, he found relief Toshiya able to love without fear anything. That was being selfish ... bass Slowly he relaxed and let's not mourn but Shinya encourage you to let go. He looked so helpless and so weak he could not help but want to remain so for eternity. We hug a little harder with your arms covering his nose sticking his head, inhaling the delicious aroma of her hair.
- Ai Shiteru carefully whisper in his ear as he prepared to spend a long sleepless night.
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When he awoke he felt invaded by a peace that had not experienced since that ominous day. Beside him lay the body of Shinya his back. He smiled to himself. Had a dream that so pleasurable for a moment thought it was real but it is ... "Sigh. Sigh that seemed enough to awaken one who so peacefully sleeping beside her, the blonde quickly incorporated stabbing an impenetrable miranda.
- Did I wake you? Sorry. I did not know you had the dream so light-Toshiya smiled as he sat in the ground where both were asleep.
"Okay, I have slept well much-that was a lie, actually during the night had not slept at all because the bassist had had nightmares so I choose not to sleep all night and nurse him sleep finally overcame him less than an hour.
-jajajajaja not appear! Look no more expensive than you ... "said the smiling peliazul. As well he had passed the night in the company of Shinya. He was quieter, safer, he felt renewed.
- "oh yeah? So you if you seem to have slept very well because you seem very happy this morning
- Actually I had a beautiful dream, Toshiya smiled just to remember and a chill ran down his spine when his mind was clouded by other less pleasant memories which also had invaded during the night. I try to delete them quickly.
-tell me your sweet dream, "joked drummer" At least not seem to remember last night's nightmares "
-well ... I dreamed that someone was hugging me all night covered with a delicious hot whispering words of love to your ear. - As he said this unpaired bassist whose eyes watched him incredulously. Flush over the face of both musicians.
Toshiya "No, it was a dream ... - Shinya was surprised by his own words. He does not have slept had left him weak to the spell of peliazul and the words had escaped his lips without his consent. Nothing can erase what he had said so the best thing was over with. Sigh I was ... A - ai ...
Chapter 10
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